I'm currently living in a life of despair and suicide bantered by memes (especially on television, shame on you writers!), my annoying brother and most of all, JEALOUSLY.
Good thing is, i haven't been thinking about suicide at all. I've just been thinking about ways to get out of this slump i am in.
I know vocaloid makes me smile, but i've just been listening to songs like Unhappy Refrain and Rolling Girl, both of which are about pain and sadness.
Now the big question is, i don't know where to go. I can't just commit suicide, but it's like waiting for that big moment to happen and when it comes, that moment may be a big change in my life. One thing is, i just don't know when it will happen but my instincts are like telling me to "wait for that moment".